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Monday, June 27, 2005

been there done that

i am tired as hell now with full day of work n with almost no sleep last night . day by day i think i becoming an insomaniac . neways today was another uneventful day we still couldn't get the damn interface correct n there are only four days left till i offitialy start my summer vaccations. i think in this whole wide assed world that i will find some ppl who are like me it's like GOD was hell bent on producing so few varities of these human beings for the fear of them taking over the planet. times have been flying by for me many a times i have felt complete but there always that uncanny feelingof something missing , sometimes hidden deep below the vast ocean of happiness n some times laying barren when that ocean dries up n all that is left is the smelly swamp of despair. But then again someone said very wisely n so i try to be a better man

"The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being. His heart withers if it does not answer another heart. His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts and finds no other inspiration."

it's just that i haven't found neither that heart nor that brain ,every attempt made has met with catastrophic failures may be i repel women .

Sunday, June 26, 2005

the dark knight

hey how bout we do a thing the we always do that is talk bout myself(my blog bout my self)

well i look at life in a mirror i is see a man who in the days gone by was happy n his life was simple n ppl liked him alot for wat he was n wat he stood for
but as the times rolled by things around him changed n so did the ppl but i remained the same self that i was but one fine daY things decided to take the nastiest turn ever n i changed from wat i was to be to wat i am now these days i am wat they call a loner i live my life my way with only the very innermost posse standing guard

n wat does the mirror hold for the future well haven't decided yet but i think that i would want to be a man who turns all this negative energy that is inside n around him to do something that's positive though i think i can call myself a misanthrope but all i want to do is to help ppl n thereby helping myself.

i guess that there are many ways to escape from the feelings that are welling up inside u to take retribution at those that have caused u great harm my way is to involve ur self so deeply in work that u forget all bout the outside world well it had worked very well for the past 5 years but i think i am loosing it again it's time to find something new to do to set a goal that is unachievable n to escape from this world to a place that u created where u are the master of u .But then again i think that times will change n that i'll be my sunny self again

Thursday, June 23, 2005

somethings missing

I'm not alone, I wish I was.
Cause then I'd know, I was down because
I couldn't find, a friend around
To love me like, they do right now.They do right now
.I'm dizzy from the shopping malls
I searched for joy, but I bought it all
It doesn't help the hunger pains
and a thirst I'd have to drown first to ever satiate
Something's missing

And I don't know how to fix it
something's missing

And I don't know what it is
At all

When autumn comes, it doesnt ask.
It just walks in, where it left you last
And you never know, when it starts
Until there's fog inside the glass around your summer heart
Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
something's missing
And I don't know what it is
At all
I can't be sure that this state of mind, is not of my own design
I wish there was an over the counter test, for loneliness.
For loneliness like this.
Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
Something's missing
And I don't know what it is
No I don't know what it is
Something's different
And i don't know what it is
No I don't know what it is
Friends -check- Money -check-A well slept -check- Opposite sex -check- Guitar -check- Microphone -check- Messages waiting for me, when i come home-check-How come everything I think I need, always comes with batteries
What do you think it means
How come everything I think I need, always comes with batteries
What do you think it means

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

back to u


Back to u
it always come around back to u
i tried to forget u
i tried to stay away but it's too late

i am so good at forgetting
and i quit every game i play
but forgive me love
i just can't turn n walk away
this way !

back to u
it always come around back to u
i walk with ur shadow
i am sleepin in my bed with ur silhouette

should have smiled in that picture
if it's the last that i'll see of u
it's the least that u couldn't do

leave the light on
i'll never give up on u
leave the light on
for me too

back to me
i know that it comes
back to me
doesn't it scare u
ur will is not as strong
as it used to be